BSA? or BSMA?

dear dear dear oh my!!!!

we just went to UST just to see our grades first hand(although we're expecting that the grades will be complete by then, but... its really early pa, and all the grades are not yet encoded...)
it's super rainy and so gloomy...
i'm sad, i dont know what is ahead of me right now,
i dont know if Im still qualified to take the BSA program or i'll be directed to BSMA! my god!!!!
i hate my college for putting us in this situation!( oh well, i can't blame them fully bec, its my responsibility to study,. but duh!!! cant they see it?? they're the only ones who's making things difficult!!!)
grrrrrrr... i really want to continue what i've started...
i dont want to be an entire failure!!!!!

im half hearted right now...
BSA? or BSMA? :(